Khamis, 26 Mei 2016

The old memories

Hello. After a long pause since my last update on 2015. :)

He came again, reminded me about the old time we had been together, the small small thing that we had ever fight and did that I don't even notice or even know it will be so meaningful today. How time flies. After years.

We rarely meet each other, say hello to each other, WhatsAap or even message to each  other. Yeah, even though some people may say internet will get the far people become close, but  it doesn't work well on us. Though it make us become more far from each other.

I got to see him once or twice a year.  Then I guess it had been only about 6 times I meet him. But the things is I don't  understand myself. Why did I get really excited to see his face, though it was, it is not really good looking. Am I nuts? Does madness fill in my brain? But, the important thing is the calmness that I get when I see him, the natural reaction I got when I am with him.

The joy that I get for the last 2 hours meeting. Yeah, only 2 hours. That why I said that it was like I am in a complicated confusion. Temporary happiness I guess. 

Why did I am still waiting thing that I will never get? After all, it only a temporary happiness. I don't even know if I got the chance to meet him again. Maybe he will married to someone else, and so does I am. I am don't know what is ahead, the future I mean.

But I hope that I got to see and spend more time with him if I got the chance again. Do the thing that I ever really wanted, tell him the real things that I want. But it is too late, I am always ended up doing some thing else, talk about something else. It was like, I am running out of time and it never enough when I am with him.

Though I am always said that I don't remember everything we had ever did, the true is, I am still remember it and I am glad that so does him. That mean, I am also not easily removed out of his mind. :p

Maybe he is super busy and so does I am right now. But you know what, nobody is really busy actually, it is a matter of priorities.

But it is okay, I am still can live my life even without him and I am believe I can grow stronger and chase my dream. For the time being, just enjoy every moment that I have. I still have a lot of people around me that I can count in. :)


P/s: I know you will happen to read this as you the one who remind me about this blog. Thanks you for your precious time. Take care and yeah, I miss you and all the memories but nothing we can do about it right. We have our own responsibilities. Let chase our dream. :)

Jumaat, 14 Ogos 2015

To write or not to write?

Hello everyone!

It had been 7th week since my 1st day of internship. Where is it? Around Selangor area. What company it is? Water and wastewater treatment management company. And absolutely it is not Syabas nor Indah Water. It is just a fate that I came across this company after one of my friend rejected their offer as him is more interested to other company which located near to his hometown. How I am wish to have internship at Lenggong. Hahahaha.

Well, left 3 week more before I am ended my days at this company. And this mean also that left 3 week more before class for semester 7 start. Hmmp. How I am wish I am still at primary school. Enjoying my day with play around with friends, laugh a lot having infinite fun, watch cartoon in the morning, play in the evening, going to mosque at night and many more. How I am miss my childhood moment. :(

Well, nothing last forever. Thus, just enjoy the moment and cherish the days coming. :)


Sabtu, 23 Mei 2015

Sangat deep!


Kau boleh menyandar pada seribu bahu kalau kau mahu,
tapi kau memilih untuk yang satu itu, yang paling dungu.

Yang buat kau bersandar sambil airmata kau jatuh bertalu.

Dan hati kau pecah beribu.

Fazleena Hishamuddin
Seksi Ovari: Shoulder to cry on.




Deep. Sangat deep ni. 

Hati tisu pulak sejak kebelakagan ni. Tambah-tambah lagi lepas tengok filem 'Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck' di mana penulisnya ialah Hamka. Huaaaa... siyes cakap, jalan cerita sangat best. Mampu buat orang menangis dari awal hingga akhir cerita. Dan bahasa dia sangat puitis tapi mudah difahami. *Hat off. Sape yang tak tengok lagi sila segera tengok. Before tu sedia tisu bebanyak.

Cakap pasal deep, deep jugak lubang gigi geraham ni. Mudah-mudahan cecepaaat la recover wahai gusi. :(  Nak makan benda yang pedas-pedas pulak. Ni dah masuk hari keempat menahan napsu makan makanan pedas. Baru empat hari fana oiiii.. Hahahahahaha. Sila bersabar dengan dugaan ini demi kesejahteraan masa hadapan. Sikit je lagi sisterrr. 

Btw dah nak masuk minggu ketigabelas dah. What? Hahahaha. Tapi.. banyak gila kerja menimbun yang tak settle lagi. Apa pon tak boleh. -.- Kasi list  sikit. Banyak sangat ke yang kau nak ngadu nasib ni Fana oiiii. Orang lain pon busy jugak, belajar jugak. Heh.

Homework 3 Momentum
Project Process Control (Presentation & Report)
Design  Exercise (Quencher)
Quiz Synthesis (Optimization)
Test Separation (Evaporation, Crystallization, Membrane)
Surprise Quiz Momentum (mesti ada lagi ni!)



Dengan ini, ayuh mula buat kerja. *bebuat busy. :p



Ahad, 8 Mac 2015

Yezza...

Hello there... (>_<) It is no doubt that it had been a long time since my last update on this blog. Haha. Like anyone care huh, dear Farhana?

A lot of things does happen in my life nowadays. And I miss the teenager moment very much when I have a lot of time to chilling around. Hee.. Well, it is 6th  semester of my studies right now. A lot of thing I learn, new friends, new experienced, new challenges, etc.

It is already 3rd week. But, a lot of things did happen.. and as usual, I am busy with  all those thing. As expected, on my first week, first day, first class... we do receive tutorial question already. Hahaha. Same thing do happen like last semester where we got biochemistry homework on the first class. And here same thing did happen on Separation II class. Well, that  is CE  life.  One more thing, apart of the tutorial, we also did have test on the first week. Honesty, I am only score 2 mark. Haha. What a  shame. Well, I am not really prepared for those test. My bad.

Beside,  we also have Chem-E Car Internal Screening Competition in the 2nd Week. Everything went well. Check this out on Youtube!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uzraEERpLE&feature=youtu.be

The competition is quite interesting and I just love  it. Ahh.. yezza, I am one of the organizing committee. And it do take a lot of my time sorting this thing out and luckily I am not the Mrs President of this competition. Else, I am might be more busier.

Btw, good night peeps. I should continue doing my revision and homework by now. See u when i see u again. :)


Jumaat, 24 Oktober 2014

Mid Semester Break

Assalamualaikum & Good Night. :)


My holiday are nearly end...


and the bad news is.... 

I am not done with my homework yet which I am still chilling around, relaxing, surfing and update this blog. -.-



My What To dO List!
  • Report E7- Two Phase Flow
  • Presentation Slide E6-Extraction
  • Tutorial Biochemistry
  • Study for midterm Simulation
  • HE questionnaire

Chill ! I can do it! HAHA



Well. Are my life are  too busy which doesn't let me to update this blog? 
Nope-

Actually I am prefer to update my Instagram rather than this blog. That is. But still, I will update this blog if I am most likely having mood, inspiration to do so. :p



Well. What I had done through my holiday? Having a short vacation? Nope. So what I do?
Babysitting my nephews-
Watching channel 552 (cartoon) only-
Cooking, eating, surfing, tidy the house-

Well. I am practicing to become a full housewife in short. :p


As the holiday nearly ended, I am better start doing my work NOW! Like there no more tomorrow. -.-

HURRYYYYYY......



See you later guys. Lots of love. 


Sabtu, 16 Ogos 2014

Short Semester


I am taking short semester aka special semester during this semester break. That mean, no long holiday for me, no long sleep for me, no long time on internet for me and so does others things. That it is.

And here it goes, the final exam are coming soon. 








As shown in the exam timetable, I am taking 2 subject; PDE and calculus. I am got C for PDE and B- for calculus last time. I am expecting for A or A- or at least B+ for this time around. Please let me increase my current CGPA which is not really in good condition anymore.

I can brag about my CGPA during the foundation level but not in the undergraduate level. It is totally far far far away from excellent level. I  am not good on anything anymore. Do I am more playing around than study?

Yes, I am admit that I am a bit distracted this time around. Not focusing. Can't digest everything faster. I am within my limit. I am scoring the same or almost same GPA for every semester. (So far it had been 4 semester) There is no very good GPA or even very bad GPA. It is average. I am wondered. Does I am are faith to be in average level only?

I am study, doing the same practice as my friend did, memories the same formula. But they manage to get higher and better grade than me. It kill me. Yeah, someone had said this to me, it is sad to see our friend fails but it is even more sad to see your friend excels in exam but you are not. I am fell stupid, offended, effortless... 

Yeah, I know should be happy for them. But how come I can be happy if my result are not good as them?

Then, lets pray for my  upcoming examination. Hoping that miracles happens. Hoping that my CGPA increases. Please.


Rabu, 13 Ogos 2014

Diam



Diam.....

kerana diam lagi bagus dari kata-kata yang menyakitkan hati ini.


Diam.....

kerana kata-kata kau itu ibarat sampah, berbau busuk macam longkang tersumbat dek sampah, layaknya ke tapak pelupusan sampah sahaja.


Diam....

kerana segala butir bicaramu tidak boleh  dipercayai langsung, janjimu lagilah tak mampu mu pegang walau satu.


Diam.....

kerana hati ini memangnya mudah terguris dengan kata-katamu itu.


Diam.....

Tolonglah diam.

kerana aku tak mampu mendengarnya lagi.



Selasa, 1 Julai 2014

Move on.


Cinta akan datang kepada mereka yang percaya kepada cinta. Cinta hanya akan datang kepada mereka yang bersedia menerima cinta. Jadi jangan sekali-kali kita merasa rendah diri, paranoid dan menyemai perasaan-perasaan negatif yang menutup pintu hati kita dari sesiapa pun. Kita ini dijadikan dengan fitrah untuk hidup berpasangan dan saling memerlukan. Jangan sekali-kali menidakkan kejadian tuhan yang sesungguhnya menyempurnakan hidup kita.

Pada suatu masa dan ketika yang betul, tuhan akan mempertemukan kita dengan seseorang yang sudi menerima kita seadanya dan menemani kita sehingga ke akhir usia.

"Cinta bukan mengajar kita lemah, tapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan mengajar kita menghinakan kita, tetapi menghembuskan kegagahan. Cinta bukan melemahkan semangat, tetapi membangkitkan semangat."



For every girl with broken heart,
there's a guy with a glue gun.

For every boy who is player,
there's a girl he will be in love with.




And guess what, I don't think so that I  had by any change meet my true love. Maybe now is not the right time for me. Maybe I need to wait longer for him. Maybe I need work harder to find it. Maybe, maybe and maybe..





If you ever fall in love with two people, pick the second,
because if you were really in love with the first,
you wouldn't have fallen in love with someone else.



And I would like to say this.....  I hate to be the second choice. That is!

Credited: Kitab Terfaktab: Definisi Cinta Infiniti

Jumaat, 20 Jun 2014

End of my 2nd year student life.

Assalamualaikum and greeting to everyone.

Just finished my final examination. Yippeeee... This indicate the end of my second year degree life. Well done Farhana! Shoud I say.. welcome HOLIDAY.... :)


After examination, I went to KLCC for my Petrosains Volunteer's interview. Actually, it was on 3.00 pm but as I reach there early, thus we having lunch first at KFC. The place was crowded with school student. It was not 10 or 20 but I guess it was more than 60 students. Wow. Luckily we found a nice place to eat. After lunch and prayer, I went to Petrosains and waiting patiently my turn. It was like about 1 hours. And I was like.. WHAT..? Ok. 

The interview session was quite ok and not too formal. I am just introduce myself and tell them about my experience which after I am leaving the  room, I am noticed that I am forgot to tell them what activities that I had join in my school and degree life. =.= But, I am guess that as they had seen all my thick certificate file, they should know that I am quite an active person literally which from my eye of my friend may NOT. :p

And now, I am officially on holiday  mood. Yeahhh... But, I am in biggest dilemma ever whether to work or taking short semester session or continue with my driving license classes or just stay at home, eat and cook ? Maybe I will considered it later. Btw, my brother ask me to come to Sabah. Need too consider that also. Em..emm.. There a lot of thing that in my plan. Urghhh.

Ok guys. Will continue writing more later. Ok. Bye. Have  a dice day.

Isnin, 16 Jun 2014

Exam mode ON

Assalamualaikum and good night.

Exam mood is happening around now. Everyone are gasping for air to breath in as it seem numbers of books, notes, examples, tutorials to read are too much enough, compiling like a big giant mountain. And after all, some need to be glare quickly and the worst, that part is what coming in the exam. Sigh. =.=

Well, for me, 3 had down and 2 more paper left. Then, I am free and can enjoy my holiday.

Hardly have time for others things. Books, notes, tutorial, past year- everything evolves on these thingy. And I can say.. I need to, I need to force myself study, drag myself from the comfy bed to the hard study chair. =.= 

Well, must admit that I am not a genius birth given child. Need to struggle and work hard in order to pass the exam. What? Pass only? Yes. Yessss!! It is not easy to pass the subject, the core subject mainly.

Okay, it seem that I had written much. Good luck people, may the good follow all of you. Cheers! 



Isnin, 2 Jun 2014

Approaching the final semester.

Assalamualaikum and good night.

It had been quite a long time since my last update. Yeah. Kinda miss the moment which I am always updated and sharing my story here. Even though it is boring. LOL. who cares?

A lot of things just happen and I am quite busy managing all those things. But that doesn't mean that I am have no time to sleep, eat, play around, etc.. To spend my time to updated all those things that had happened in my life is the last things I  will have done. Yeah, finally, here I am, updated!

I am addicted Story of My life by One Direction right now, the chorus part keep playing in my head. LOL..

And I'll be gone, gone tonight
The ground beneath my feet is open wide
The way that I been holding on too tight
With nothing in between

The story of my life

I take her home
I drive all night to keep her warm
And time... is frozen (the story of, the story of)
The story of my life
I give her hope
I spend her love
Until she's broke
Inside

The story of my life (the story of, the story of)

Lol. How on earth I am still can be calm even though the final is coming around... in less than a week... and... honestly I am not well prepared yet. That it is. =.=

Well. Everything went well. Nothing much.

Waitttt... actually a lot of things I am would like to write, but let it be in another post. It is not a good idea to compress all story in on post. Yeah. That mean I will come back and post  another story. Weeeweeee~~~~

Okay. that the end of my post tonight...

Good night. Sweet dream peeps!




p/s: my love will be home in 5 days more. weeweeee.. :)




Ahad, 20 April 2014

10 Reasons to Become a Chemical Engineer


1: Median annual starting salary for a person with a Bachelor’s Degree in Chemical Engineering is $70,000

2: Chemical Engineers are highly employable – that means it’s easy to find a job!

3: Many career choices are available to Chemical Engineers, from pharmaceutical industry to Nanotechnology

4: Chemical Engineers get to change the World!

5: You may very well get to blow stuff up if you choose Combustion Engineering.

6: They will teach you how to make drugs!

7: Average salary offered to Chemical Engineering Master’s Degree holders is over $70,000 per year!

8: You get to travel the World and work in beautiful places around the Globe!

9: People will always be impressed when you tell them what you do for a living.

10: You will have job security. Chemical Engineers are in high demand and are projected to be for the foreseeable future!



Khamis, 27 Mac 2014

A great experience indeed!

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.

Memang dah lama sangat-sangat Ana tak post apa-apa dalam blog ni. Why? Why? I am quite busy mahh handle macam-macam benda.

Sekarang ni bertimbun tinggi macam gunung kinabalu dah homework Ana. -,-

Lab report lagi, assignment separation lagi, numerical, and bla bla bla... Hal akademik banyak sangat tak settle. Tak fokus. -,- Padahal tujuan asal datang UM ni nak belajar. Tapi bila pikir balik, join projek pon dikira menuntut ilmu jugak la kan.

Sem 4 buka masa pertengahan bulan Februari. Masa ni sibuk daftar subject. Dengan bermulanya semester 4, maka bermulalah segala gerak kerja.

First event, Chem-E Car Competition UM. Yang ni kami semua handle yang internal punya competition. Next level, international level kat UPM pada 9 & 10 April 2014. Untuk level international, UM hantar 2 kumpulan yang menang masa internal level. OK. Untuk Chem-E Car ni, Ana under biro publisiti. Then skop kerja just design apa yang patut, handle page, promote dekat sosial network and bla bla bla....

Have a visit to https://www.facebook.com/ChemeCarUM for more info regarding Chem-E Car. Ni event yang dianjur khas untuk chemical engineer's student. Tapi budak kos lain pon boleh join dengan syarat kena ada at least 2 student chemical engineer dalam group tu. Setiap group perlu ada 4 ahli.

*All committee and competitor of Chem-E Car UM.

*Me
Second event, Hornets Open Day. Project ni tahun lepas pon Ana join jugak under Biro Protokol and dulu dikenali sebagai Pesta Hari Terbuka Kolej 9 UM. This time, Ana under biro Program dan Persembahan. Maka, saya sangat lah busy dari sebelum event start hingga la hari terakhir. Penat tapi puas hati lah. Such a good try la for me as beginner. Before ni mana lah pernah handle benda cenggini.

Ahhaaa.. disebabkan Ana under biro program, maka menjadi satu tanggungjawab untuk mengurus segala jemputan semua.

Untuk hari pertama, program derma darah bersama pihak PPUM,pesta buah-buahan dan slot motivasi. Untuk slot motivasi, Ana jemput Aiman Azlan, Ustaz Syed Abdul Kadir AlJoofre dan Salima Habibi.

*Ustaz Syed Abdul Kadir AlJoofre

*Salima Habibi

*Aiman Azlan

*Forum 'Masih Ada Harapan'
For the second day, kami anjurkan J-robic. Program ni dengan kerjasama pihak PEMASHOR UM, Persatuan Mahasiswa Johor UM. Maka, pihak PEMASHOR sendiri yang tolong lead program ni and first time jugak lah merasa ber J-robic ni. Agak sama je macam senamrobik biasa, just yang ni khas untuk warga Johor. Interesting. 

Then, pesta buku mini. Tak banyak pon yang kami berjaya bawak. Tapi quite ok lah kan dari tak ada langsung.

Photo: salam 1 malaysia

hr ni akan diadakan  mini pesta buku.. baucer buku diterima ;) anda dijemput memeriahkan majlis
*Pesta buku mini
Selain itu, ada jugak program Santai Jagung. Kami jual jagung and rasanya banyaknya jagung yang Ana makan. OK. Dah muak dah sekarang sebab makan banyak sangat. -,-

Malamnya pulak, ada pertandingan karaoke. Dan semestinya tak adanya Ana nak join. HAHA. Yang ni Ana just cari juri je untuk adili pertandingan ini. Tak susah la nak cari sebab ada je student kolej 9 sendiri yang layak jadi juri kan. And memang suara beliau sedap pon. :)
Last day, ada marathon; Ninth Run Ninth. Semestinya Ana join sebagai peserta lah kan. Alhadulillah, dapat no 5. Yeayy..dapat hadiah. Last dapat hadiah pon masa Larian Gegar 3rd college. Tu pon dapat kaktus je. -,-

Then, lepas balik lari je, terus rushing bersiap nak pergi rumah abang kat Rawang. Ada kenduri kesyukuran sempena dapat baby baru. Nur Qistina Afrina tak silap Ana. Yela kot.

Maka, dengan ini berakhirlah segala program yang Ana perlu handle. Yeay. Sekarang boleh fokus study semula.

Btw, pada 26hb Mac 2014, ada lawatan industri ke kilang Gardenia. Best. Interesting. Overall menarik lah. Membuatkan saya lebih cenderung nak pilih food industries. HAHA.


*Monopod

*Gardenia industry visit

*Goodies from Gardenia. Tq.
Such a great moment. Banyak benda yang Ana belajar kat UM ni dan bukanlah fokus kepada akademik semata-mata. 

Betullah. Kita tak akan belajar kalau tak buat sendiri benda tu. Pengalaman ajar banyak benda kepada kita. So....

Start explore kelebihan diri kita dan serlahkan keyakinan. Heee...



Sabtu, 8 Februari 2014

b.o.d.o.h


Orang yang cerdik dan bijaksana tidak akan memanggil orang lain dengan gelaran bodoh, kerana dia sedar bahawa kebijaksanaan yang dia miliki adalah anugerah daripada Tuhan dan kebodohan orang lain yang dia lihat itu adalah ketetapan Tuhan pada orang tersebut. 

Hakikatnya, orang yang masih memanggil orang lain dengan gelaran bodoh adalah orang yang telah gagal melihat hikmah yang tersirat di sebalik setiap kejadian yang berlaku. Kadangkala kebodohan pada orang lain dalam tanggapan kita itu, merupakan kebijaksanaan bagi orang tersebut. 

Para hukama menyatakan, di dalam kepala otak setiap orang bijak pandai, pasti di sana terdapat satu sudut kebodohan yang dia tidak sedar, kerana Tuhan tidak menciptakan setiap manusia itu sempurna. Kesempurnaan itu hanya milik Tuhan sahaja.





Tiada beza antara kebijaksaan dan kebodohan apabila berhujah dengan orang bodoh, berkata Sayyiduna 'Ali bin Abi Talib (رضي الله عنه):

إثْبَاتُ الْØ­ُجَّØ©ِ عَÙ„َÙ‰ الْجَاهِÙ„ِ سَÙ‡ْÙ„ٌ ÙˆَÙ„َÙƒِÙ†َّ إقْرَارُÙ‡ُ بهَا صَعْبٌ



"Memberikan hujah kepada si jahil adalah mudah, pun begitu apa yang susah ialah bagi si jahil tadi menerima hujah tersebut."




Sabtu, 1 Februari 2014

Nota dulu-dulu...


Belek-belek buku-buku yang guna masa kat Seratas dulu and guess what? Jumpa buku nota catatan untuk catat masa perhimpunan, taklimat, program motivasi atau meeting  ke kan. By the way, dulu kira macam wajib la buat catatan masa perhimpunan. Hahaha.


6 April 2010
Selasa
3.30 petang

Rahsia Pelajar Cemerlang~

  • motivasi diri
  • ciri-ciri pelajar cemerlang
  • meniru untuk berjaya

Bagaimmana memotivasikan diri?
  • berangan-angan, bercita-cita, berusaha
Matlamat yang jelas?
  • untuk apa? untuk siapa?

1. Motivasi diri
  • saya mahu menjadi benih yang subur
  • saya akan berfikir seperti juara
  • "saya tidak mahu berjaya, saya mahu sangat berjaya!"
  • tetapkan matlamat yang tinggi
  • jangan "hangat-hangat tahi ayam"

2.  Ciri-ciri pelajar cemerlang
  • anak yang soleh/solehah - solat 5 waktu, doakan kesejahteraan ibu bapa, tidak derhaka kepada ibu bapa
  • anak yang disayangi - menghormati orang tua dan guru, bersopan
  • anak yang berwibawa - penampilan peribadi, fizikal
  • penampilan peribadi - personaliti, tingkah laku, gaya bercakap, suara
  • penampilan fizikal - pakaian, raut wajah, kepintaran bersosial
  • optimistik, jangan bersikap pesimistik, kesedaran memikul tanggungjawab, tumpuan sepenuh hati
  • mulakan dari awal - ulangkaji, perbincangan
  • sentiasa bersedia, lengkapkan peralatan, tepati waktu belajar, dapatkan bantuan guru
  • beri pandangan membina, berbincang dengan rakan, study group, peperiksaan kendiri
  • jadual waktu, ceramah motivasi, malu bertanya sesat jalan
  • makanan seimbang, solat, doa, tawakal.

3. Meniru untuk berjaya
  • Kolonel Sander-KFC - "aku bukan gagal, tapi belum berjaya..."
  • Napolean Bonaparte - "perkataan mustahil hanya ada dalam kamus orang dungu.. jangan salahkan keadaan, buat perubahan.."
  • Tun Mahathir Mohamed - "kita tidak boleh  berjaya jika kita mengatakab kita akan gagal.."


kasih Dia


Seorang hamba telah melakukan dosa, lalu dia berdoa:

"Wahai Tuhanku! Ampunilah dosaku."

Lalu Allah berfirman:

"Hambaku telah melakukan dosa dan mengakuinya. Dan dia mengetahui ada baginya Tuhan yang mengampunkan dan menghukumnya, maka Aku ampunkan dosa-dosanya."

Lalu ia kembali melakukan dosa akibat kelemahan dirinya. Setelah menyedari kesilapannya semula, ia berdoa:

"Wahai Tuhanku! Ampunilah dosaku."

Allah berfirman:

"Hambaku mengetahui Aku boleh mengampunkan dan menghukumnya, maka Aku ampunkan dosanya."

Dosa yang sama dilakukan kembali akibat kecuaiannya sebagai seorang hamba. Seterusnya ia memohon keampunan daripada Allah atas dosa-dosanya yang ia sering lakukan tanpa disengajakan.

Lalu Allah berfirman:

"Hambaku telah melakukan dosa dan mengakui kesilapannya. Maka Aku ampunkan dosa hamba-Ku ini. Buatlah apa yang engkau mahukan, maka Aku ampunkan engkau!"

[Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim.]

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MUHASABAH

Allah itu Maha Pengampun dan Maha Penyayang. Lihatlah betapa kasihnya Allah terhadap hamba-Nya yang bertaubat. Syurga yang diciptakan Allah itu benar-benar mahu kita menjadi penghuninya. Allah juga sentiasa memberikan kita peluang mencuba dan terus  mencuba untuk mendapatkan syurga.

Biarpun Allah sentiasa memberi peluang buat kita untuk bertaubat, usah ditangguhkan untuk memohon keampunan dan memperbaiki amalan kita. Takut-takut maut pula yang terlebih dahulu mentapa sebelum pintu taubat terbuka.


Bosan


Aku dah bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Ada ijazah pun dah tak berguna.
Kerana zaman dah berubah.
Ramai yang mencari doktor di FB.
Ramai yang jadi Dr Google dan Dr FB.

Aku dah bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Hanya diperlukan bila nak MC.
Nasihat tak pernah didengar.
Ubatan tak dimakan ikut peraturan.
Malah ada yang langsung tak makan ubat.
Takut nanti rosakkan buah pinggang.

Aku dan bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Sekarang wujud ubat2 ajaib dan ubat2 super.
Satu ubat untuk semua jenis penyakit.
Telan satu jenis pil.
Semua penyakit boleh disembuhkan.
Ada ubat super yang boleh merawat sistem badan.
Membetulkan mana2 yang rosak.
Membetulkan hingga sampai ke saraf tunjang.
Sel2 badan boleh ditukar dan diganti baru.
Semua penyakit boleh hilang dari badan.
Darah tinggi boleh normal.
Kencing manis boleh sembuh.
Gout boleh sembuh.
Kanser pun boleh sembuh.

Aku dan bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Belajar ilmu perubatan 5 tahun dah tak berguna.
Sebab ilmu yang aku belajar,
sangat berbeza dengan ilmu perubatan sekarang.
Ilmu fisiologi dah tak betul.
Ilmu biokimia dah tak betul.
Ilmu farmakologi dah tak betul.
Ilmu patologi pun dah boleh buang ke longkang.
Ada garam bukit penawar semua penyakit.
Ada daun2 kering penawar semua penyakit.
Ada jus buah2an penawar semua penyakit.
Ada kopi penawar semua penyakit.
Ada juga mesin boleh buang toksin.
Ada juga air rendaman kaki untuk buang racun.
Yang sakit jadi sihat.
Yang tua menjadi muda.
Dah tak payah pergi klinik.
Dah tak payah pergi hospital.
Dah tak payah jumpa doktor.
Minum aje ubat2 ajaib.
Telan aje pil2 kesihatan.
Duduk aje atas kerusi elektrik.
Rendam aje kaki dalam air.
Semua penyakit boleh hilang.
Itulah kehebatan ubat2 sekarang.

Aku dah bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Pesakit2 sekarang lebih pandai daripada doktor.
Pesakit2 sekarang lebih percayakan kawan2.
Pesakit2 sekarang lebih percayakan ubat2 ajaib.
Pesakit2 sekarang lebih percayakan rawatan alternatif.
Pesakit2 sekarang lebih takut dengan ubat2 moden.
Ubat2 moden merosakkan buah pinggang.
Ubat2 moden tak boleh merawat kanser.
Ubat2 moden tidak menyembuhkan.
Ubat2 moden sekadar mengawal.
Imunisasi itu ciptaan Israel.
Imunisasi penyebab Autism.
Lebih baik makan ubat2 ajaib.
Kencing manis boleh sembuh.
Gout boleh sembuh.
Asthma boleh sembuh.
Kanser pun boleh sembuh.

Aku dah bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Aku dah bosan memberi nasihat.
Aku dah bosan memberi penerangan.
Aku dah bosan menyuruh pesakit datang follow up.
Stok ubat sebulan boleh tahan sampai berbulan2.
Ubatan diberi sekadar jadi pameran.
Ramai pesakit2 aku yang degil2.
Paras gula naik sebab buatan orang.
Kena stroke sebab gangguan jin.
Berat badan susut sebab ada orang dengki.
Kena kanser pun sebab buatan orang?

Aku dah bosan jadi doktor bertauliah.
Kerana zaman dah semakin berubah.
Doktor dah semakin tak relevan.
Penyakit boleh digoogle di internet.
Kawan2 penasihat dah ramai di FB.
Ubat2 boleh dibeli difarmasi.
Ubat2 juga boleh dibeli online.
MC pun sekarang boleh dibeli online.

Aku tak faham.
Terutama dengan ubat2 MLM.
Terutama dengan agen2 MLM.
Kenapa mudah sangat percaya,
satu ubat yang boleh menyembuh segalanya.
Dengan modal testimoni beberapa orang,
habis dijajanya ubat2 mereka satu dunia.
Yang tua dipujuk untuk membelinya.
Yang muda diajak menjadi downlinenya.
Malah doktor juga cuba dikelentongnya.
Dulu pernah ada lampu ajaib berharga 5 ribu.
Yang boleh membersihkan udara.
Membunuh segala jenis kuman dan kekotoran.
Dulu pernah ada sebuku sabun berharga 150 ringgit .
Yang boleh menjadikan awet muda.
Dulu pernah ada tuala wanita.
Yang diperbuat daripada herba2.
Boleh menyerap racun dan mencegah kanser.
Juga boleh letak didahi jika demam.
Juga boleh diletak dilutut jika terkehel.

Dan ini yang terbaru.
Hablur garam dan gula.
Ada pesakit ajak aku join mereka.
Berminggu2 aku study dan google.
Ubat yang boleh bertindak hingga ke saraf tunjang?
Biar betul?
Kalaulah betul ubat ini wujud,
doktor dah tak payah kerja susah2.
Tutup sahaja semua klinik dan hospital.
Semua orang akan jadi sihat.
Tiada lagi penyakit didunia ini.

Sebenarnya aku kasihan dengan mereka.
Sama ada yang menjual atau membelinya.
Mereka mudah sangat percaya.
Kepada benda2 karut.
Kesihatan diri diperjudikan.
Wang ringgit sanggup dihabiskan.
Tidakkah mereka tahu,
ubat2 moden perlu 15-20 tahun untuk dipasarkan?
Perlu ada clinical trial.
Perlu ada kajian saintifik.
Bukan setakat testimoni beberapa pak sanggup.
Bukan setakat cakap2 sesedap mulut.
Bukan setakat menggunakan istilah saintifik tanpa logik.

Aku dah bosan menjadi doktor bertauliah.
Aku dah nak bersara.
Aku dah nak balik kampung.
Membuka ladang kangkung.
Selamat tinggal.

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